I'm alive! I swear!

Things have been terrible here. My mother acts like a complete zombie and found out today that she had found her medication and had been taking it. (she looked all over the house) She over does it. She says she so mouch in pain and gives my father hell saying "Steven! How could you let me live in pain? I wouldn't do this to you!" it was scary because dad had finally snapped today and threw a chair against the wall. It knocked over the framed pictures with the table as he yelled. I was so scared. Mom had pushed him to the limit. I just sat on the stair case to the hallway almost crying. I never seen my dad so angry before in my entire life.

I don't blame him to be honest. She has been a pain and Mary (angelvalintine) and I agreed that my mom should be taken to a nursing home. Dad said that we couldnt because we didnt have the money. We are in a literal financial hole. We cant spend anymore money. Not even a penny. If we had money it went to bills that cant be paid off for another 18 months or so. His work has even pressed him. His company, Pemco Intl., has a competitor named Pharoh Inc.. Well dad had some porcelain shipped (he makes porcelain inside of ovens) and his workers (my dad is the bussiness boss of them) made the porcelain wrong and a diffrent color than what a comapny wanted. So the company that didnt take dad's products went to Pharoh. Dad's company (Pemco) lost alot of money from the loss. He's been working later and later. He works a second job at dominoes and that's not so easy either.

He even keeps getting big splotches on his skin that turn to be skin cancer. Yes they remove it but it keeps coming back. His heart isnt that good either. My dad is also overweight and works himself to death. One day it will be literal death if he doesnt stop beating himself up with work. I know he cant miss a day because the money is very much needed. We never have been in so much debt, dad is wanting to sign up for bankruptsy to save us. It's either that or the cell phones and internet go away. I dont want that to happen. I wont be in contact with close people such as my family and my best friend Mary.

There is this lady that is the GM (general manager) of this gas station here in town and she wants me to work for her. She almost begged me on the phone. She kept saying that she'd adjust my hours and that she'd give me flexible hours if i needed it. She said she'd take me right away. Dad wont let me work. He said my job is school. I've been making excellent grades lately and passed a midterm test in my Operating Systems class with a 98% score. There was 67 questions. (is a computer geek and proven with mid term >_> ) I was really proud. But back to what i was saying, dad said if i passed midterms (i have two classes) then i might be able to work but he needs help with money. WHICH i have no problem with because he's my father and is the best parent in the world. He doesnt use it for beer and junk, he puts it in the bank for groceries, gas, bills, and whatever comes up that needs to be paid. If it was my mother asking for the money i wouldn't EVEN give it to her.

This journal is getting long. -_-;

BUT! i'm working on a short story for Mary's B-day contest. I wrote five descriptive paragraphs within 30 mintues during college on my break. (i'm having a severe craving for writing lately. hence the long journal)so you all look forward to that.

LOVE YOU GUYS AND MY BIG SIS!!!!